You know how people keep asking "so how did you know you loved them?" That question is nice, sure, and I know exactly when I realized I was in love with Milo Anani. But the feeling of it doesn't begin to compare to the moment I realized he loved me just as much. 

I mean, a part of me probably knew for a while. But there was this one time where the realization hit me like a ton of bricks. 

It was a few days before we actually admitted our love to each other with those three little words. I was just getting ready for bed, and while I was removing my shirt I felt that little 'someone is watching me' tingle. 

I didn't even turn around to look at Milo when I asked him what was wrong, and if something was on my back. 

I can't stress this enough - Mi is an entirely romantic guy but isn't show-y about it, almost ever. And that's OK. I don't mind being the one to kiss him first most of the time. So when he strode across the room in that moment and didn't hesitate to turn my face to press the most tender kiss on my cheek... 

"It seems I just couldn't resist..."

Uuuugh words are hard, ok? I'm not even sure I understand what happened aside from I felt so, entirely loved. 

And it's not like it's never happened before! When he wants to... I mean, he's had moments where he kissed me up against the wall, where he initiated intimacy, where he was the one who was needed to be told to let go because he couldn't hold me forever. 

It's... how can I explain this. When Milo does reach out to me, he has the cutest habit. He always just kinda seems to be concentrating on whatever he's doing. He puts all of his focus on every gesture, every look, every touch, as if I'm the only thing that matters and.... f,ck, honestly I thought I'd end up with someone more care-free and spontaneous but... in that moment I knew it. It wasn't just that he was the one for me - it was much more a feeling of certainty in 'us'.

And just... sh*t, that little, simple, true loves kiss on my cheek was the moment I knew, somehow, that I was loved by him. By Milo. It was the first time I felt like I was falling for him all over again, like the kiss was like our first, and I have no idea why or how but stars above that was a moment that could have lasted eternity. And not just that - there was how he held me after, arms loose but his head leaned on mine, as we were just silently taking each other in. 

We were already aware of the battle, but in that moment, it was just... us. No fear no goodbyes no nightmare demons in my partners head. Just a still and silent moment, where we were just two guys falling for each other a little harder.