r/jazcarter
u/jazcarter
I can't believe I am doing this
Today, I am going to ask Rose about what she was going to ask me when we were in the library on Thursday. I am just going to ask her no matter how scared I am. I would do it by the end of today. Give me some time to actually muster up the courage to ask her. Also, I have work from 8 pm to 12 am so that doesn’t give me much time. I may just start off with asking for help with work or something and just slide the topic into conversation. I’m going to make it casual. What if she’s like, I don’t remember? That would be terrible and this would have been all for nothing.
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“How has work been?” Ravyn asked while Jazmine was getting ready for work.
“It’s been okay, not much has been happening in the library. People come in, they do work, they leave. Some cry. Nothing too serious.” Jazmine responded before leaving and saying bye.
She was walking to class and she was getting nervous. She started to overthink about what she would say to Rose and how Rose may react. She was going to ask Rose what she was going to say the last time they saw each other. The only problem was she didn’t know when to do it, once Jazmine sees Rose or was she going to let them talk for a few minutes and then bring it up casually? Maybe something along the lines of, “On Thursday, after the little interview I had, I was looking for you, but couldn’t find you. You were going to ask or say something?”
Is that too pushy, obsessive? It was too late to come up with something now, Jazmine had reached her seat by then and Rose was already there.
“Hey, Rose,” Jazmine tried to say nonchalantly, but it took everything in her will power not to cringe. Why did she have to say it all perky, like she was excited to see her? Rose didn’t need to know that.
Rose said hi back and before they could start a conversation about their weekend, the professor started the lecture. About thirty minutes later, the professor let the students work on the worksheet that he posted online.
Jazmine was struggling with the worksheet. She understood when the professor was speaking, but when it came to actually put it to real-life situations, she blanks. She looked over at Rose and she seemed to understand.
“Hey, do you understand what’s going on and how to do the worksheet,” Jazmine asked, not wanting to fully assume she understood.
“Yeah, it’s not that hard when you think about it,” Rose responded.
“Well, I am thinking pretty hard, so do you want to talk more after class?” Jazmine asked, the class was very quiet and people were giving them weird looks for taking. Jazmine seemed to be interrupting their peace and quiet, so she opted for continuing the conversation later.
Rose nodded and smiled a little, it even seemed like she was blushing. When Jazmine saw that, she couldn’t help but smile herself. If Jazmine was having a hard time with her worksheet, it was worse now. She couldn’t stop thinking about talking to Rose after class, even if it was just about class.
The class ended, and Rose left before her. Rose is the type of student who packs up when there are two minutes left of class and the professor is speaking. Jazmine waited and tried to listen over everyone’s bags being opened and zipped up.
When Jazmine walked out of class, she saw Rose standing there waiting.
“Hey, so I have to go now, I have a class right after this, but maybe we could meet at the library around 6? We could go over some notes. Does that work for you?” Rose asked. Jazmine nodded her head and Rose said, “Okay cool, see you then.” Then she was off.
Jazmine goes back to her dorm, happy about the fact that she would be seeing Rose later that day. She even forgot about asking what Rose was going to say in the library a few days before.
When she walked in her dorm room, Rayvn noticed the smile, and asked, “Why are you so happy? The girl from class gave you some head or the other way around?”
“What, no! We are going to the library and go over notes from class, I don’t understand anything.” Ryan asked, taken back from Rayvn’s bluntness.
“Oh like a study date? That’s cute.” Rayvn said.
Jazmine told her it not a date and then immediately regretted it because she sounded like a toddler.
Jazmine did the best that she could to keep herself busy until 6 o’clock and to get that “date” off her mind. It was 5:50 pm and Jazmine couldn’t take it anymore and went to the library. She was a little early, but she saw Rose there.
They sat at a table together and they were close. Closer than when they are sitting next to each other in class. The sudden closeness made a nervous Jazmine even more anxious.
At first, they were a little awkward, but as time went by, they got comfortable. While Rose was explaining the concept of psychology to her, she would understand. There were times when she would get distracted by Rose’s beauty. They worked on the worksheet from class together and when Jazmine had a question, she would just ask. It was getting close to her shift at the library, and she suddenly asked, “On Thursday when we were here, you were going to tell me something before I had the interview. What were you going to say?”
“Oh, how did that interview go? I was going to ask you out on a date on Thursday. I was going to try again today after class, but I got too nervous.” Rose replied.
“I got the job, I actually have work in 20 minutes. My shift is from 8 to 12, so do you want to go out to eat tomorrow?” Jazmine asked her heart beating faster than her roommate, Rayvn.
Rose waits a few minutes, putting Jazmine on edge, and says, “I would love to, but I feel like you should know this, I am straight.”
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