8:53am fawnstars
"Honestly, most people don't know that about my current life because I can barely stand talking about it.. basically my son at 15 decided he didn't want to live with us anymore and started staying with my mom&stepdad, and I told them to NOT give him a key/room/food and just send him home. They refused and instead sprnt $20,000 on lawyers to sue me for full custody of Sage, calling me an "unfit mom." 😢 We went to trial, faced judges and in the end I split custody with them and now pay them $450"
9:05am fawnstars
"a month in child support."
9:47am army_made896
"good gof"
9:49am army_made896
"god"
10:00am fawnstars
"They all three (spn/mom/stepdad) stopped seeing/talking to me completely and they live here in pdx"
10:08am army_made896
"yea that is hitman fodder if i've ever heard it"
10:15am army_made896
"fuck em"
10:27am fawnstars
"We've considered... everything."
10:37am fawnstars
"Fuck them seriously much."
10:41am army_made896
"i know that's hard to do, but i am viciously vengeful and will hold a grudg for eons"
10:46am fawnstars
"#0fxgivn"
11:03am fawnstars
"Now you see why I love your motto haha"
11:17am fawnstars
"I just have to walk thru hell tbh"
11:18am army_made896
"everyone loves it, even if they don't admit haha"
11:27am fawnstars
"It sux"
12:07pm army_made896
"i LOVE driving past a minivan of ecumenicals and making sure i get in front of them so that they can read it, loud and deliberately"
12:30pm fawnstars
"Haha!! Best part I bet lol"
12:38pm army_made896
"i hate that for you, Fern. i don't know you, but i feel like you should NEVER be dealt a bad hand"
1:15pm army_made896
"like Phoenix, you should rip matter apart at the subatomic level over and over again at will"
1:42pm fawnstars
"My nephew LOVES your license plate. He said as soon as he saw it.. WHAT!! I didn't know you could get that 😂"
1:51pm fawnstars
"Thank you mike ❤👊"
2:08pm fawnstars
"We both have "seen" alot 😎"
2:45pm fawnstars
"I'd say you know me haha"
3.39pm army_made896
"haha tell him you can do anything in this world. funny story, when i submitted it to the walrus behind the counter in the alabama courthouse, she says, "now this will have to get approved at the state level, just so ya know.""
4:32pm fawnstars
"Rebel!"
4:47pm army_made896
"i told her it's a secret family code that has turned into a motto dating back centuries"
5:18pm army_made896
"she shrugged her shoulders (which wound up moving her upper torso) and submitted it"
6:27pm army_made896
"done, and done. ✅"
6:38pm fawnstars
"Tcob mf"
6:44pm army_made896
"i have to admit i laffed my ass off walking out the door"
6:59pm fawnstars
"#winning lol 😂"
8:37pm fawnstars
"The Phoenix thing hurts because I feel SO powerless.. 😢 I hate it so much tbh. I got pregnant with Sage at 20 in NYC. I met his dad and 2 wks later he had me against a wall choking me off the floor. I didn't know I was pregnant, got away from him and 1 month later I found out I was pregnant. I never told him he had a kid until Sage was 16 yrs old, they met on father's day. I was terrified of "father" but felt I had to keep Sage and keep him and me alive so that's what I did."
8:38pm fawnstars
"I've facedalot of pain and judgement for that decision but now that we've found him again everyone can see I did the right thing I think.. he is still really wack unfortunately."
8:42pm fawnstars
"Anyway.. long story but basically I have fought so hard since day 1 to keep Sage and raise him with love.. it fucking hurts."
8:57pm fawnstars
"In the darkest moments I have driven over bridges and dreamed of flying.. I could never leave Christian but the lonliness is hell. Christian fought harder than I have ever seen anyone fight for someone else in my life-storybook love he has for me ❤ Sage started seeing me again this month finally after TWO YEARS of all 3 of them shunning me. Maybe something can finally shift. Sorry to bore you with this and I DO know you are super busy! We can catch up more when you bring the ukulele lol"
9:02pm army_made896
"I know the loneliness you speak of, and I talk to the shrink about it. It's like you're surrounded by everyone, but not a soul is around. It's horrifying."
9:23pm fawnstars
"I started seeing a shrink specializing in Narcissistic abuse a few months ago and will hopefully bring Sage too soon. She is SO rad, an angel 😇 Nothing makes my mom talk to me or love me and that's life on planet Fern. 🌍🌿"
9:30pm fawnstars
"I really am doing much better and everything is basically tolerable now lol... Thanks for "listening" mike.. I NEVER share like this and am usually more "2cool4school" and blase'. #0fxgivn is a way of life ✊😎🎧 ✌Now get back to blowing stuff up haha 😊"
9:59pm fawnstars
"#5years 💪 #youcandoit"
10:09pm army_made896
"i dunno. you don't seem so bad to me? 😜"
10:10pm army_made896
"i also don't know if i can do 5 more years; i'm weird that i prioritize sanity over "success""
10:10pm army_made896
"pretty scared right noe"
10:10pm army_made896
"now"
10:27pm fawnstars
"I'm the worst just good at hiding it haha"
10:28pm fawnstars
"I'm so sorry this decision sucks so much and is hard to weigh.. what are your options besides retire? Is it a lifetime paycheck or "success" you'd be holding out for?"
10:44pm army_made896
"That is precisely the conundrum: stay in the Army and make about $40K a year just to simply breathing, OR, go to the United Arab Emirates and take a job starting at $225K a year.."
10:45pm army_made896
"👆🏿"
10:45pm army_made896
"that's a lotta 🧀"
10:45pm fawnstars
"If you chose to go to the UAE would you be "blowing stuff up", teaching, or?"
11:20pm army_made896
"UAE pilots--aren't always the brightest. But they have a lot of dough so we sold em a bunch of 64s. I would be an Instructor Pilot (AKA I.P.). If we do, Tor could finish her Ph.D. AND get a high-paying english teacher job. So it's really what I'm hoping for."
11:22pm army_made896
"As far as deployments, the Army hasn't a single clue. I may never deploy again, or I may leave tonight. Makes it really nice for planning vacations and such 💩"
11:22pm fawnstars
"🖐 Hi five! Do what you love. Life is short!!"
11:22pm army_made896
"Have to."
11:23pm army_made896
"No other way..."
11:24pm fawnstars
"I am always the Unicorn in my forest.. I never leave."
11:26pm fawnstars
"UAE is far away but I hope you follow your dreams ✊"
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